Still A Part of Us

Melanie talks with Winter about finding a group of women who helped her through the difficult times right aft the loss of Bennett, who passed one day after his birth due to left ventricular non-compaction (LVNC). Melanie talks about finding out about the organization Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep ( https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ ) and what they do for mourning parents by taking photos and touching up photos of their children.

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Melanie talks with Winter about the birth of his son Bennett, who passed away due to undiagnosed left ventricular non-compaction (LVNC) after one day. Melanie talks about how she was overseas when she gave birth to Bennett and how the staff didn't really communicate what was happening to Bennett and his condition. 

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Lee goes over somethings that has helped him navigate the holiday season after the passing of his son Brannan.

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Aaron talks with Lee about his son Anakin and who the last couple of years has been since the passing of Anakin at 8 day old. Aaron talks about finding a good therapist who has help him to understand the emotions and the grief that he is feeling. Aaron also talks about the Sad Dads Club (https://saddadsclub.org/) and how they have helped him to feel not so isolated in his grief.

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Aaron and Lee talk about little Anakin, who passed at 7 days due to a virus. Aaron talks about how Anakin was born early and spent time in the NICU, but contracted an unknown virus and quickly became unresponsive. Aaron talks about how he and his wife had to make the final decision to stop life extending measure and how they held him till the end.

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Hailey comes on and talks with Winter about her nephew Declan, who was stillborn at 36 weeks, and the pain that the whole family has gone through with his passing. This is a unique perspective that shows that our little children are greatly loved by more than just mom and dad. Hailey talks about how she and her sister are best friends and that the whole pregnancy Hailey was so looking forward meeting the sweet little guy.

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Lee speaks with Ben about his beautiful daughter Nora, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to a funic presentation cord prolapse. Ben talks about how excited they were to have another baby and how their living daughter was so excited to become an older sister. Ben talks about the time leading up to the moment they get the terrible news that their Nora doesn't have a heartbeat. Ben talks about the amazing people who were they to support them in their grief.

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Winter talks with Heather about her daughter Nora who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to a funic presentation cord prolapse. Heather talks about finally giving permission to herself to stop blaming herself. Heather also talks about fining outlets to put the love that she has but doesn't have a place for.

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Winter talks with Heather about the the birth of her daughter Nora, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to an umbilical cord accident. Heather talks about how everything was going along so well until right before she was to be induced. 

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Joy and Winter talk about what has helped since the stillbirth of Lila, who was stillborn at 20 weeks due to a placental previa. Joy talks about how her family, especially her son, will include. Lila in everything they do as a family. Joy also talks about how she will always live with both happiness and sadness in everything she does, and that's okay. 

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Winter has a wonderful conversation with Joy about the stillbirth of her daughter Lila, who passed due to a placental previa at 20 weeks. Joy talks about having to deliver at home because it was such a sudden event. Joy also talks about how there were so many decisions that were needed to be made yet not feeling like she knew how to continue on in the decision process.

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Helena and Winter talk about what has helped since the stillbirth of Maila, who passed at 36 weeks due to preeclampsia. Helena talks about how she has been able to bond with her daughter through the use of a spiritual medium and how she has used those techniques to further her connection. Helena also talks about writing books that have helped her in her grief.

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Helena and Winter talk about the birth and death of Maila, who was stillborn at 36 weeks due to preeclampsia. Helena talks about the excitement that she and her husband had to welcome this little one into their family and life. Helena talks about all the dreams she had for what the future was suppose to be, and how that was changed instantly.

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Winter and Jojo talk about how it has been since the stillbirth of Mickey and what has helped her to start the healing process. Jojo talks about the outpouring of love and support from family and friends. Jojo mentions counseling and the wonderful benefit that has been for her.

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Jojo and Winter talk about the birth of Michelangelo (Mickey), who was stillborn at 35 weeks due to a blood clot in the placenta. Jojo talks about the excitement she and her husband were feeling and how they were preparing to great their little baby boy. Jojo talks about going into the hospital and finding out the little Mickey didn't have a heartbeat and then having to figure out the next steps in the process.

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Victoria talks with Winter about what has helped her after the loss of her son Maddox, who was stillborn at 23 weeks due to a silent placenta abruption.

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Victoria talks with Winter about her wonderful son Maddox who was stillborn at 23 weeks due to a silent placenta abruption. Victoria talks about how they were so excited for the new addition to their family. Victoria talks about the events leading up to the birth of Maddox, and the sadness that she experienced and still experience.

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Louise and Winter continue their talk about the birth and life of Xavier, who passed 19 days after birth due to complications with his brain development.

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Winter talks with Louise about her son Xavier, who died 19 days after birth due do complications with his brain development. Louise talks about the joy she felt during the early stages of the pregnancy and the worry in the later stages. Louise tells us about finding out that there were complications and that she needed to head to the Children's Hospital of Eastern Ontario (CHEO) and the wonderful team that help her and Xavier. Louise is so thankful to all the staff that helped her at the Ronald McDonald House and the Roger...

Karina talks with Winter about some things that has helped since the death of her sweet daughter Chelsea, who died 19 days after birth due to  the improper development of her corpus callosum. Karina talks about reaching out to her friends and giving them permission to include her in the group chats. That even though she may be sad now,  she doesn't want to be excluded from life. Karina reminds us that we are still people, and we desire connection. A book that helped her after the loss was "The Baby Loss Guide: Practical and compassionate support with a day-by-day re...

Karina talks with Winter about the birth, life, and death of her daughter Chelsea. Chelsea was born at 36 weeks and lived for 19 day. The cause of death was not apparent at first. After getting second opinions from other doctors, Karina was able to understand that her daughter's brain hadn't developed properly in the corpus callosum and that was ultimately what lead to Chelsea's death.  

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Karina talks with Winter about the birth, life, and death of her daughter Chelsea. Chelsea was born at 36 weeks and lived for 19 day. The cause of death was not apparent at first. After getting second opinions from other doctors, Karina was able to understand that her daughter's brain hadn't developed properly in the corpus callosum and that was ultimately what lead to Chelsea's death.  

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Jason has an open conversation with Lee about his son Xander, who was born with TAPS (Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence) and passed away due to the advance stags. Jason talks about how he and his wife Sarah were very surprised when they found out that they were pregnant. He tells us about how they were even more surprised that they were expecting twins. Jason talks about preparing to welcome two new kids, but then they were given the horrible news that their babies had TAPS.  

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Sarah and Winter talk about what has helped since the loss of Xander, who passed due to Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence (TAPS). Sarah tells us about how their community came together to support them in the first little while with food and other help. Sarah talks about how running and training for races help her to process her emotions and feelings. 

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Sarah talks with Winter about the birth and death of her son Xander from Twin Anemia Polycythemia Sequence (TAPS). Sarah tells us about finding out when they were pregnant and the surprise of finding out they were expecting twins. Sarah talks about the sad discovery that her twins were extremely at risk because of Twin anemia polycythemia sequence (TAPS).

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Winter and Yazmin talk about what has helped since the stillbirth of Tommy, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to fetal bradycardia. Yazmin talks about how she was greatly supported by her family and how she was shown such great love. Yazmin talks about how there were times when she wanted space by herself to grieve. Yazmin also tells us about going back to the hospital to bring flowers and to tell all the hospital staff "thank you" for the support she received while they were there.

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Yazmin talks with Winter about the birth of Tommy, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to fetal bradycardia. Yazmin talks about how she was pampered by her family and how she was preparing for the birth of her son. Yazmin tells us of the moment she goes in for a late term doctors appointment and they tell her to get to the hospital because the baby's heart rate was extremely low. Yazmin talks about having an emergency C-section and recovery after.

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Vadym and Lee talk about what has help after the loss of Andrew, who died shortly after birth at 37 weeks due to hydrocephalus caused by an immature teratoma tumor on his brain stem in the cranial cavity. Vadym talks about how he is a quite introspective man who doesn't really like to show his emotions externally and how he has been able to work through his grief with a good internal dialog. Vadym also took up running and has ran every day since to promote a healthy control over a sad situation. 

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Vadym talks with Lee about his sweet little boy Andrew, who passed away after being born at 37 weeks due to hydrocephalus caused by an immature teratoma tumor on his brain stem in the cranial cavity. Vadym talks about how he and his wife Nataliia met while dancing and fell in love after being friends for a while. Vadym talks about how they were so excited to welcome their son into the world and how it was a wonderful pregnancy, until a simple check up late in the pregnancy. 
 

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Nataliia talks with Winter about what has helped her after the birth of her son Andrew, who passed after birth at 37 weeks due to hydrocephalus caused by an immature teratoma tumor on his brain stem in the cranial cavity. Nataliia talks about how even though it ultimately was a sad ending to the ending of her pregnancy, her son is such a wonderful blessing to her and she loves him so much. Nataliia talks about choosing to be happy for her friends who were pregnant instead of pushing them away and how that would have caused her more pain...

Nataliia and Winter talk about the birth of Andrew, who passed away shortly after birth at 37 weeks due to hydrocephalus caused by an immature teratoma tumor on his brain stem in the cranial cavity. Nataliia tells us about how she and her husband were so excited to welcome their first child into their home. She talks about how everything was perfect until 37 weeks when she had an appointment and they informed her that something was not right. Nataliia recounts all that needed to happen to see what was happening with Andrew. 

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Heather and Winter talk about what has helped Heather after the loss of Rosemary, who was stillborn at 37 weeks due to a blood clot that lead to an acute umbilical cord accident. Heather talks about how sometimes you think grief is a one shot event, but in reality it's a wash and repeat over and over. Each time it gets a little easier, but you always have it with you.  

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Heather and Winter sit together and talk about the birth of Rosemary, who was stillborn at 37 weeks due to a blood clot in the umbilical cord, known as umbilical cord thrombosis. Heather talks about the sickness she felt in the first trimester and needing to go to the hospital for an IV drip. How everything was going perfect until she stopped feeling Rosemary's movement, and having to go into the hospital alone due to early COVID19 protocol and receiving the news that there was no heartbeat.  

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Winter and Lee talk about strategies and coping mechanisms that have helped Winter and others to "get through" Mother's day after the loss of a child. We asked out community if there were tactics that they use to help with the grief and pain, but also the joy of motherhood. 

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Shelbie and Winter have a discussion about what helped after the loss of Ryder, who died at 36 weeks due to a placental abruption. Shelbie talks about finding support groups that helped her to not feel so lonely, and how she is now able to be a support to others. Shelbie talks about how she and her mother have gotten closer due to the horrible event.

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Shelbie talks with Winter about her beautiful son Ryder, who was still born at 35 weeks due to a placental abruption. Shelbie tells us about the events leading up to her having to face this hard time all by herself, and how she has lived a life that involves honoring her son every day.

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Vinnette talks with Winter about things she has done and things other people have done to help her and her family in this time of loss. Vinnette talks about how people have helped with food and how that has relieved the mental taxation she has, and how that is one wonderful way to show love to someone in need.

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Vinnette and Winter talk about the birth of Meekah, who passed after 7 hours of life due to the complications of anencephaly. Vinnette tells us of how she and her husband decided to expand their family and how it was such joyous news to hear that they were pregnant. Vinnette talks about the diagnosis at the anatomy scan and how she decided to continue with the pregnancy to term and finding peace in the process. 

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Karen and Winter talk about that has help Karen after the loss of her daughter Kori, who was stillborn at 23 weeks due to unknown reasons. Karen talks about the help she received from her work and her husbands work. She tells us about how getting texts and calls helped her and still helps her to feel that Kori is remembered and not forgotten. Karen closes with a beautiful letter she wrote to Kori.

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Karen and Winter talk about the birth of Kori, who was stillborn at 23 weeks due to unknown reasons. Karen tells us how her pregnancy progressed and how she and her husband were so excited to welcome in this new baby to their family. Karen talks about the process of having to be transferred to a MFM after the anatomy scan. Karen recounts how she has to have a follow up scan and it is at this scan where she finds out that her sweet little Kori has no heartbeat. Karen tells us about how she was preparing for a...

Emily talks with Winter about her sweet little Dexter, who was stillborn due to anencephaly at 38 weeks. Emily talks about how she was so blessed to be able to bring Dexter home for 10 days and how that has helped her cope with his passing. Emily Also reads two poems, one that was read at Dexter's memorial and one she wrote for him.

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Emily and Winter talk about the birth of her son Dexter, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to anencephaly. Emily talks about how she had to take control of her own health care and advocate for her and her son. Emily tells us about all the wonderful people who helped her to make the sorrowful situation one of healing and love. 

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Emily and Winter talk about what has helped Emily after the death of her son Kehpri, who died due to spina bifida and complications of cervical myelomeningocele. Emily talks about how there is no timeframe for grieving and that as a parent your whole world view and goals need to be readjusted. 

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Emily talks with Winter about her sweet little son Kehpri, who passed 5 hours after birth due to complications with cervical myelomeningocele and spina bifida. Emily tells us about moving back to her home state of Oregon and finding out early that her little baby might not make it with a misdiagnosed scan. Emily talks about the hope she had when the medical staff informed her that the original diagnosis was false, but that the new diagnosis of spina bifida would most likely be terminal to the little baby. Emily moved on with hope and carried little Kehpri till 36 weeks.  Duration: 01:08:33

Evelina talks with Winter about what has happened since the birth of her daughter Alia, who was stillborn at 29 weeks due to complications with CPAM (congenital pulmonary airway malformation). Evelina talks about getting professional help from a therapist and the good that has done for her in navigating the wide variety of emotions and feelings from experiencing the death of Alia. Evelina also reads a letter she wrote for past self giving encouragement and love for the future. 

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Evelina talks with Winter about the birth of her sweet baby Alia, who was stillborn at 29 weeks due to complications with CPAM (congenital pulmonary airway malformation) and a placental abruption. Evelina tells about how she and her husband would love to have a large family and that Alia was their second daughter. Evelina also suffered with polyhydramnios, which is excessive amniotic in the womb.

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Shermica and Winter talk about what helped Shermica after the lose of Zai, who was stillborn at 39 weeks. Shermica talks about having her aunts around her to pull her out of the darker parts of depression. And how she was able to have a painting of Zai commissioned for her to pick up right from the airport so it didn't feel like she was arriving home so empty.

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Shermica talks with Winter about her sweet little Zia, who was still born at 39 weeks due to a placental infection (Chorioamnionitis). Shermica talks about how terrible her first trimester morning sickness was and how there was no relief from it until the start of the second trimester. Shermica tells us about going to New York for better health care and staying with family until the terrible day of finding out little Zia had no heartbeat.

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Leigh and Winter talk about what has helped after the loss of Brynnley, who passed due to a cord accident at 36 weeks. Leigh talks about how she has made some great routines that have helped her to always  have Brynnley in her day to day life. 

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Leigh and Winter talk about the birth of Leigh's sweet daughter Brynnley, who was stillborn due to a cord accident. Leigh tells how she became pregnant and the journey she had while pregnant. She was so excited to have her sweet Brynnley, but was so besides herself when the hospital staff told her that they couldn't find a heart beat. Brynnley was 36 weeks.

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Amy talks with Winter about things that have helped her over the past 16 years since the stillbirth of her daughter Ava. Amy talks about taking time and space to allow yourself to heal. Amy reads a poem about "shoes" that is a metaphor for stillbirth and infant loss. 

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Amy talks with Winter about the birth of her sweet daughter Ava, who was stillborn at 38 weeks and passed in utero to unknown causes. Amy talks about how perfect the pregnancy was and how everything was going great until the time of actual delivery when they couldn't find a heartbeat.

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Kayla and Winter talk about what has helped the years after Camie passed away from hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy (HIE). Kayla talks about when she was getting ready to go back to work how she sent an email to all her coworkers informing them what had happened and inviting them to ask her questions and how she gave them permission to talk to her about Camie.

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Kayla and Winter talk about the birth, life, and death of sweet little Camie Rose, who died at 2 months due to hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy (HIE). Kayla talks about how they were excited to welcome in a new daughter and how they were getting ready for all that having two girls would mean to them. Kayla talks about the labor and the issues that arose that would ultimately change the course of their lives.   

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Daniel and Lee talk about the birth of his son Landon, who was stillborn at 35 week due to a placental abruption. Daniel talks about the pregnancy of Sarah, his wife. Daniel talks about the day that would ultimately change the course of his life and how he and his wife have handled it these years.

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Sarah and Winter talk about the impacts Landon has had since his death due to a placental abruption. Sarah talks about changing her career and how that has let her honor her son while also helping other mothers in loss. Sarah talks about having other children after Landon and experiencing all sorts of emotions and anxiousness. 

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Sarah and Winter talk about the pregnancy, death, and birth of Landon, who was stillborn at 35 weeks due to a  placental abruption. Sarah tells about the struggle she had with infertility and being to excited when she was able to conceive and then having to be pregnant during the COVID-19 pandemic. Sarah talks about having an underlining feeling of worry the whole pregnancy, but not being able to pinpoint the cause. Sarah tells Winter about the events of Landon's birth and how he actually saved her life though he was already dead.  

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Paris and Winter talk about the helpful things people have said and done since the death of Drexton, Paris's son who died at 6 months old due to an undiagnosed atrial septal defect (ASD). 

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Paris and Winter talk about the beautiful life of Drexton, who died at 6 months old due to an undiagnosed atrial septal defect (ASD). Paris tells of the relative ease of the pregnancy, and having to have an emergency cesarean and finally bringing home her little bundle of joy. Paris tells Winter about finding a nanny when she went back to work and the tragic events that lead to her rushing to the hospital and finding her son on life support. Paris mournfully retells the events of being told that Drexton has severe brain damage and her having to choose...

Elizabeth and Winter talk about what has help after the loss of Lael, who was stillborn due to a subchorionic hemorrhage at 19 weeks. Elizabeth talks about finding out about using a saline solution to preserve Lael and how that helped her and her family admire their son and brother a little longer. Elizabeth talks about how her faith has helped her put this loss into an eternal perspective and how that has helped her to mourn, but not be lost. 

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Today, we're joined by an incredible guest, Elizabeth, who has experienced unimaginable heartbreak—11 losses. Through her strength and resilience, Elizabeth is here to share her journey, offering hope and comfort to others who may be navigating a similar journey.

Elizabeth and her husband, Jacob, are parents to a big family, including six living children—all whose names begin with "L." Elizabeth is a homeschooling mom, a church pianist, and leads a children's music class at church. Jacob works as a truck driver and preacher, having served in ministry for over a year at the...

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care.

Melissa's daughter, Patricia, was born 16 years ago. Tragically, due to a cord accident, Patricia did not survive. Though it's been 16 years, Melissa continues to not only remember, but celebrate her daughter's life.

In this episode, Melissa shares her journey of remembrance and grief and we discuss the importance of understanding that these heartbreaking situations are not your fault.

Highlights from our conversation with Melissa:

Coping with the loss of her daughter, Patricia

Her children's...

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care.

 Being a young mom of two is both beautiful and challenging. But when you become pregnant and experience constant morning sickness throughout the entire pregnancy––that adds another level of difficulty.

In this episode, our guest, Melissa, shares the moments leading up to the birth of her baby girl, Patricia, who was stillborn at 36 weeks due to a pinched cord. Even though this happened over 16 years ago, Melissa's love for Patricia has only grown, just like any mother's love for her c...

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care.

Nothing can prepare you for navigating life after the stillbirth of your child. My guest, Veronika, shares her experience of grieving her son, Benjamin, whose cause of death is unknown. She opens up about the comfort she found in community support, the challenges of loss, and the words that have been both helpful and hurtful along the way.

In this episode, Veronika reflects on the church's compassion and support that surrounded her and her husband, Scott, during their grief. She...

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Hours after hearing her son's strong heartbeat at a final checkup, Veronika received the devastating news that her sweet Benjamin had passed away. Looking back on her challenging pregnancy, Veronika shares the heartbreak of losing Benjamin at 40 weeks, with the cause of death unknown, and the impact it has had on her life.

In this episode, Veronika opens up about her pregnancy, finding a new OB-GYN, and hearing Benjamin's heartbeat only to be told he had passed.

Highlights...

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While at least 25% of stillbirths are preventable, stillbirth is almost never linked to parental behavior. Still, parents often blame themselves, wondering, "Should I have done this?" or thinking, "I shouldn't have done that." It's a natural response––it's just what humans do. But families should be reassured: stillbirth is almost never linked to the behavior of the parents.

This is why we're so honored to interview Dr. Bob Silver and Sarah Lopez, MHA, MPH, CPH, from the University of Utah Hosp...

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They say time heals all wounds, and for today's guest, Scott, that's been true. Although everyone's journey through grief is different, as time passes, the process of healing can start.

In this episode, Scott shares the story of losing his son, Benjamin, due to a single umbilical artery. Scott talks with Lee about how he and his family found support from a local pastor even though they weren't from the area. He also opens up about the challenges that grief...

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There's not only heartbreak, but resilience that comes with the loss of a child. Our guest, Scott, shares about the devastating loss of his beautiful son, Benjamin, at 40 weeks and how this has reshaped his life and strengthened his bond with his family.

In today's episode, Scott and Lee talk about the heartbreaking moment when Scott and his wife, Veronika, discovered Benjamin had only one umbilical artery, sparking fears around the diagnosis. Scott dives into the painful experience of going...

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In this episode, Winter and Lee reflect on how they navigate the grief and loss of their sweet baby boy, Brannan. They share an update on their healing journey, how they honored Brannan's sixth birthday, and discuss how they continue to heal while keeping his memory alive.

Lee also reads an essay he wrote about the forces that turn dangerous broken glass into something beautiful.

Some highlights from this episode with Winter and Lee:

Celebrating Brannan's...

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After a decade has passed, the pain of losing a child never fades. Today's guest, Jennifer, shares the challenges she's faced since that routine checkup when she discovered her son, Nicholas, no longer had a heartbeat.

In this episode, Jennifer and Winter talk about the years following Nicholas's passing, the sweet help she received from her family (especially from the family dog), and the meaningful ways she remembers her son to build a legacy for him.

Some highlights...

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Little baby Nicholas was diagnosed with multicystic dysplastic kidney syndrome after an anatomy scan. Doctors advised that they would just keep an eye on it, assuring Jennifer that he should be a normal functioning baby. Tragically, Nicholas had blood clots in his umbilical cord and was stillborn at 33 weeks.

In this episode, Jennifer shares her journey, including her move to Florida, discovering she was pregnant, and finding new care for herself and her baby. She talks about choosing the name...

Stacy's sweet little son, Carson, was stillborn at 34 weeks due to unknown reasons. Stacy opens up about the support that helped her navigate her grief and shares advice for others who are experiencing similar pain.

In this episode, Stacy talks with Winter about the support that helped her after the stillbirth of Carson. Stacy also talks about her wonderful family and friends that reached out and helped, as well as the great support group that she has been able to be involved with.

Highlights from this episode with Stacy:

The challenges o...

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Stacy's conversation with Winter is a powerful one. She opens up about how she found comfort during the most heartbreaking time of her life––the loss of her son, Carson, who was stillborn at 34 weeks due to unknown reasons.

In this episode, Stacy and Winter talk about getting 4D and 3D ultrasounds and seeing Carson's smiley face and happy demeanor. Stacy talks about being pregnant with baby Carson and what led to going into the hospital to check on him.

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Today's guest, Claire, shares her experience of losing her daughter, Paulie, during childbirth due to shoulder dystocia. She opens up about how she found ways to navigate her grief.

In this episode, Claire talks with Winter about the journey she's faced since the tragic loss of her daughter, Paulie. She reflects on the comfort of a meal train organized by supportive friends, which took the burden of cooking off her family's shoulders. Claire also discusses her return to work as...

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While pregnancy is often filled with joy and anticipation, sometimes things take a devastating turn that no one should ever have to face. In this episode, Claire shares the story of her sweet daughter, Paulie, who was born at 41 weeks but tragically passed away during the birthing process.

Claire talks about the early stages of labor at the birthing center, where everything seemed to be going smoothly, until complications when Paulie became stuck in the birth canal and needed to...

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Seeking out community support and recognizing that grief is a normal, ongoing process are key steps in healing.

In this episode, Ari opens up to Winter about the loss of her sweet baby boy, Kai, who was stillborn at 30 weeks. They discuss the importance of finding community and seeking professional help when needed. Ari looks back on the support she received from family and friends who all played a crucial role in her healing journey.

Some highlights from...

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After struggling with infertility for 18 months and finally conceiving naturally, Ari talks about the "sweet and tender moment" of their first prenatal appointment. Everything seemed to be progressing well until sadly, their son, Kai, was stillborn at 30 weeks. 

In this episode, Ari and Winter reflect on the process of grief, the support from loved ones, and how Ari navigated their heartbreaking loss.

Some highlights from our conversation with Ari include:

The emotional experience of delivering Kai n...

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At 28 weeks, placental issues led to emergency C-section where Elif gave birth to twins. Tragically, she lost her daughter two hours after birth and her son three days later. 

In this episode, Elif and Winter talk about the grief process, cultural practices, and how to memorialize and cope with such profound loss.

Some highlights from our conversation with Elif include:

Losing her daughter two hours after birth and her son three days later

Seeking h...

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Elif and Winter have a beautiful conversation about Elif's sweet twin children, Mavi and Deniz, who were born at 28 weeks due to placental failure and complications of cholestasis of her pregnancy. 

In this episode, Elif talks about her and her husband's struggles with infertility and their eventual success with IVF. We also talk about the joy of discovering they were expecting twins, the attentive healthcare she received during her pregnancy in her home country o...

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Life for Kaileigh changed drastically since the loss of her daughter, Melody, who tragically passed in utero at 21 weeks and 5 days. 

In this episode, Kaileigh reflects on the support she received from family and friends and shares a heartfelt poem she wrote for her sweet baby girl, Melody.

Some highlights from our conversation with Kaileigh include:

Feeling lost and searching for answers after her loss

Navigating unmet expectations, frustration, and loneliness

Coping w...

Winter has a wonderful conversation with Kaileigh about her daughter Melody, who was stillborn at 21 weeks and 5 days. Kaileigh talks about how she had the "perfect" first trimester with very little morning sickness. How the got the 3D ultrasound and the beautiful videos of Melody. Kaileigh then recounts having a premonition feeling that something wasn't correct as they come home from a short vacation. Kaileigh and her husband went in for the postponed 20 week ultrasound and were told that their daughter didn't have a heartbeat. Melody was born the day after and Kaileigh was blessed to have had many...

Makayla and Winter talk about the little things that helped in the recovery after Makayla's little daughter Cambria  passed away due to complications with Type 1 diabetes. Makayla talks about the wonderful people what have surrounded her and helped her become a better mother and advocate. Makayla talks about the changing circumstances in her healing that has lead her to where she is now. 

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Winter talks with Makayla about her little sweet daughter Cambria, who was stillborn due to Makayla experiencing complications with Type 1 diabetes. Makayla tells Winter about the excitement of finding out that she was pregnant and getting more excited to welcome this little girl into their lives.

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Lori and Winter talk about how grief has changed over almost 30 years since Cassi was stillborn. They talk about the way life has shaped the way Lori and her family has gone about remembering and including Cassi. 

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Winter talks with Lori about her sweet little Cassi, who was stillborn due to the umbilical cord being wrapped around her neck multiple times. Lori talks about the fear of getting pregnant for the fifth time (three live births and one miscarriage) and not knowing if she could do it again. She talks about how they had moved to a new-ish city for them, and were away from family with only a small network of friends and neighbors. 

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Chelsie talks with Winter about the impactful things people did after the death of her son Desmond, who died at 38 weeks due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. Chelsie talks about having time and space to mourn and the differences in grief she and her husband experienced. Chelsie reflects on the was they talked to their 2 year old daughter about the death of her little baby brother and hopes that it will help her understand the love they have for him.

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Winter chats with Chelsie about her sweet little baby boy, Desmond. He was stillborn due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. Chelsie talks about he joy of finding out that they were pregnant, and the excitement of expanding their family. Chelsie talks about going to the hospital to get a NST after not feeling Desmond move and being told that there was no heartbeat. 

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Winter and Stephanie talk about how life has been for Stephanie since the passing of her son Cedric, who was stillborn at 18 weeks. Stephanie talks about trying to find answers to the many questions that surround the causes of he's death. Stephanie also discovered health issues she had which has caused her to be extra cautious in her subsequent  pregnancy and birth.

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Stephanie and Winter talk about the birth of little Cedric, who was stillborn a 18 weeks. Stephanie was a young mother getting her family started and this was her third birth. Her first birth had some complications and her child was born alive and healthy, just very small (around 2 kg/4.5 lbs). Stephanies second pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage, and she found herself pregnant with Cedric shortly after. All seemed to be going well until she awoke one morning with some spotting. She then had to give birth to her son who had passed in utero.

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Tammy and Winter talk about the constant evolving of grief and sorrow that comes from loosing a child. Tammy talks about what helped her 28+ years ago and what she has had to do for herself. Tammy also talks about the pain of watching her own daughter go through a stillbirth of her grandson and how she has tried to help. 

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Tammy and Winter talk about sweet little Cody, who died at two months due to SIDS. Cody was such a loved son and brother, and he is still loved dearly by all who know him and his family. Tammy tells us about what it was like in the 90's for her with giving birth and life. 

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Winter and Leesa talk about the things that helped after the loss of Avery, Leesa's son who developed bilateral renal agenesis in utero and was stillborn after 24 weeks.

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Winter talks with Leesa about his little boy Avery, who developed in the womb with bilateral renal agenesis (BRA). Avery born at 24 weeks after being induced. Avery passed in utero.

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Matt talks about what he has learned about mourning after the death of his daughter Ivy, who passed due to a cord accident. Matt talks about learning to support and mourn together as a couple and as a family. That even though he felt that he needed to have some isolation, that was actually a detriment to his relationships. 

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Matt and Lee talk about the birth of Matt's daughter, Ivy Rebecca. They talk about how Matt and Sharon (Matt's ex) decided to not find out the gender of their unborn baby and the excitement of getting ready to welcome in this new baby. Matt tells us about waking up with Sharon as she started the labor process and getting the hospital bags into the car and coming back to find Sharon in the kitchen already progressing in labor.

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Winter talks with Sharon about the healing process and all that has happened after the death of Ivy, almost 7 years ago. They talk about grieving and having a group to go to. Sharon talks about being drawn to help and having a support around her that makes it possible to raise funds at certain times for organizations that are in need.

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Sharon and Winter talk about little Ivy Rebecca, who was stillborn at 40 weeks due to a cord accident. Sharon recounts the surprise of finding herself pregnant, because it took some time to become pregnant with her other children. She talks about lining up midwives and a birthing doula and finding out the gender during the 20 week ultrasound appointment. Sharon also tells us about how Ivy was born and having to plan a funeral instead of enjoying the sweet beginning of a new life.

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Bailey talks with Winter about her beautiful daughter Hazel, who was stillborn at 37 weeks do to a gun wound. Bailey recounts the excitement that was building and the anticipation to meet her. Bailey recounts the tragic events that lead to the death of her unborn child, and the process of having to recover physically and emotionally after such a horrific event.

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Christine and Winter talk about ways people helped after the loss of Dom, Christines son who died in utero. They talk about how they as mothers want to tell friends and family about their child. They talk about the different ways people mourn loss and how that can affect relationships.

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Christine and Winter talk about little Dominic (Dom) and the impact he has had on Christine and her husband since his stillbirth at 25 weeks due to preeclampsia. Christine voiced her concerns with her medical staff, but felt that she was being told to not worry and that everything was normal. 

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