Moms, Mats and Manuscripts

Moms, Mats and Manuscripts

By: Ksenia Volkova Tomaz

Language: en-us

Categories: Society, Culture, Personal, Journals, Kids, Family, Parenting

Moms, Mats and Manuscripts is a podcast hosted by Ksenia Volkova Tomaz, a former molecular biologist, yoga teacher and mindset coach for scientists, and mom. This is a space for honest, unpolished conversations about the parts of academia and ambition we don’t talk about enough.Here, we explore the mental and emotional load of being a young scientist or high-achieving woman: the pressure to constantly produce, the identity crises, the inner critic, the fear of slowing down, the guilt around rest, the invisible labour of motherhood, and the messy process of redefining success on your own terms.I share pe...

Episodes

E37 - New Year, new podcast (kind of)
Jan 09, 2026

Welcome to the new chapter! In this solo episode of Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts, I share what’s changing on the podcast in 2026 and my vision for the year ahead. 

I talk about the upcoming episode series focused on motherhood in and around academia, including family planning during a PhD, parenting as a postdoc or researcher, identity shifts after becoming a mother, and balancing ambition with care. I also introduce a series on alternative careers after academia, exploring non-linear career paths, leaving academia, and creating meaningful work beyond the traditional academic track.

I...

Duration: 00:14:40
E36 - (S3E16) Starting a family in academia: a conversation on fears, ambitions and the myth of perfect timing (with Dr Asya Martirosyan)
Dec 03, 2025

In this honest and beautifully chaotic episode, Dr Asya Martirosyan joins me once again for a vulnerable conversation about starting a family in academia: the fears, ambitions, cultural expectations, and the persistent myth of “perfect timing.”

We dive into the pressures placed on women in STEM to excel at everything: building a career, being a present mother, running a household, staying balanced and ambitious… often without any real support or open discussion.

We talk about:
 • fears around motherhood and “ruining” our kids
 • cultural influences on how we imagine parenting
 • the myth that children limit succ...

Duration: 01:31:47
E35 - (S3E15) Science, startups, and sanity: finding balance while wearing many hats with Dr Asya Martirosyan
Nov 12, 2025

In this episode of Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts, Ksenia sits down with Dr Asya Martirosyan to explore the highs and lows of life in academia, the pressures of PhD and postdoc work, and how she rediscovered her love for science when freed from external expectations.

We dive into:

The mental and emotional toll of PhD life and academic pressure;

How cultural factors affect the way we work, perceive criticism and show up in academia;

Rediscovering curiosity and doing science for the sake of science;

Transitioning from academia to entrepreneurship...

Duration: 01:18:57
E34 - (S3E14) Speak up: A conversation on finding your voice and confidence with Emma Gaskin
Oct 30, 2025

Public speaking, whether in a conference room or on stage, can feel absolutely terrifying. For many scientists, it’s part of the job, yet few of us are ever taught how to really do it: how to command a room, connect with an audience, and share our message with confidence and authenticity.

In this episode, Ksenia talks with Emma Gaskin, a former speech therapist and founder of The Speaking Hub, who now helps women in business and leadership find their voice and speak with impact. We dive into:

- Why public speaking feels so scary (an...

Duration: 01:03:08
E33 - (S3E13) Becoming the mentor you needed: a conversation with Dr Liz Berry about mental health, mentorship and changing academic culture
Oct 14, 2025

What makes a great mentor, and how can we create a healthier, more compassionate academic culture?

In this episode of Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts, we talk with Dr Liz Berry, assistant professor at New York Medical College and creator behind @dr.lizberry on Instagram and TikTok. Liz shares her honest experiences moving from PhD student to educator, how burnout shaped her approach to mentorship, and why she believes rest and compassion belong in every lab and lecture hall.

We explore:

The difference between supportive and harmful mentorship (and how mentorship...

Duration: 01:04:41
E32 - (S3E12) What 2 years of motherhood taught me about life, work and growth
Sep 30, 2025

In this solo episode, Ksenia is reflecting on two years of motherhood and the 7 powerful lessons it has taught her about life, work, and growth. These are not just parenting lessons; they’re insights anyone can apply in their career, studies, or personal life, especially if you’ve ever struggled with boundaries, perfectionism, or identity in your work.

She talks about:

🌱 The importance of mentorship and guidance
🌱 Why community and friendships matter (even when life feels overwhelming)
🌱 Living and acting from your values
🌱 Protecting your boundaries
🌱 Not letting motherhood - or academia - become y...

Duration: 00:32:41
E31 - (S3E11) You can't fail at rest: a solo reflection on letting go of "perfect" self-care
Sep 16, 2025

Do you ever feel like rest and self-care have become just another task on your never-ending to-do list? In this solo episode, Ksenia wraps up her 3-part series on rest and slowing down. She shares why so many of us turn self-care into another chore, why hustle culture and perfectionism convince us that we can “fail” at rest, and what that mindset is really costing us.

From holidays that feel like assignments to meditation routines that become another checklist item, Ksenia explores the importance of reclaiming rest as something light, joyful, and deeply restorative and not another prod...

Duration: 00:29:44
E30 - (S3E10) Rest as rebelllion: a solo reflection on how rest is an act of resistance
Aug 26, 2025

In this episode, Ksenia is diving deeper into the idea that rest is an act of rebellion. 

We've all been there: the pressure to constantly hustle, especially in fields like academia and other demanding careers, can be overwhelming. But what if slowing down and prioritising rest wasn't a sign of weakness, but a powerful act of resistance against a system that glorifies burnout?

Ksenia shares bits of her personal journey and observations from her time in academia, as well as:

Why true resilience isn’t found in endless work, but in the courage to ste...

Duration: 00:28:25
E29 - (S3E9) The courage to slow down: a solo reflection on finding your pace in a world that won't stop rushing
Aug 13, 2025

What if slowing down was not a weakness, but a skill?

In this solo reflection, Ksenia talks about how she went from constantly rushing (and feeling like rest was something she had to “earn”) to slowly learning the courage it takes to pause, breathe, and choose a different pace, even when the world (and her mind) is screaming “go faster.”

She shares:

- Why slowing down often feels so uncomfortable 

- The sneaky guilt that comes with resting or moving slowly

- Moments from her own life when the rush near...

Duration: 00:27:56
E28 - (S3E8) Prenatal yoga: our honest experiences, challenges and lessons
Jul 29, 2025

In this intimate, honest episode, we (two moms and yoga teachers) open up about how yoga supported us through pregnancy, labour, and postpartum - not just in the physical sense, but in how we learned to listen to ourselves, surrender, roar, and recover.

We reflect on:
 🧘‍♀️ How our prenatal yoga routines shifted across trimesters
 🔁 What we’d definitely do again and what we wish we had done differently
 🌀 How yoga helped us stay intuitive, present, and calm during pregnancy
 🗣️ The tools that actually made a difference in labour: breath, sound, focus, trust (and toe stands)
 🦁 Tapping...

Duration: 00:45:07
E27 - (S3E7) Hormone health, cycle-informed living and productivity: Interview with Emilia Villegas
Jul 15, 2025

Stress, overwork, and constant hustle can wreak havoc on your hormones, especially if you're constantly ignoring your natural cycle and your body's cues. In this episode, Ksenia sits down with hormone health expert Emilia Villegas to discuss how modern work culture impacts our hormonal well-being and what we can do to reclaim balance.

We cover everything from how stress throws off your endocrine system to menstrual cycle-informed productivity, to simple and practical tips you can start using today to support your hormone health without needing to overhaul your entire life.

Whether you're dealing with fatigue...

Duration: 00:47:34
E26 - (S3E6) On hearing our bodies’ messages (and learning to not ignore them)
Jul 01, 2025

In this honest and open conversation, we reflect on how our relationships with our bodies have evolved over the past decade, from student all-nighters and coffee-fueled burnout to a more attuned, mindful approach shaped by yoga, motherhood, and life experience.

We explore:

• What “body awareness” really means
• How chronic stress, anxiety, and burnout show up physically
• Our very different (but equally chaotic) student years
• How practising yoga changed the way we treat ourselves
• The messy process of learning to rest without guilt, especially as moms
• How motherhood redefines what “energy management” looks...

Duration: 00:42:53
E25 - (S3E5) Building a business and raising a toddler
Jun 17, 2025

This solo story gets personal: Ivna interviews Ksenia about the behind-the-scenes chaos (and beauty) of trying to build a meaningful, sustainable yoga business while raising a toddler full-time.

We cover what it's like to feel like you're falling behind - and also exactly where you're supposed to be. Plus, we end with a tangent on Zumba, mindful movement, why yoga is the perfect antidote to academic stress, and how it supports scientists beyond just stretching.

Listen if you're:
 → A scientist or academic feeling burnt out
 → A parent trying to stay true to yourself
 →...

Duration: 00:51:25
E24 - (S3E4) Academic mobility: Lessons and love stories from the places we’ve lived in
Jun 03, 2025

What does home really mean when you've lived across half a dozen countries? In this heartwarming and honest episode, we share our personal journeys through Europe and Asia - from summer internships and PhDs to falling in love, becoming mothers, and redefining identity with every move.

💬 We talk about:

- The unexpected butterfly effects that changed our lives 🌍
- What it's like to move for love, work, or curiosity
- How motherhood reshaped our sense of home and roots
- Building rituals and finding grounding amidst constant change
- The grief of los...

Duration: 01:05:49
E23 - (S3E3) Burnout recovery, rewiring the brain and healing through yoga: Interview with Sylvie Lahaie
May 27, 2025

In this powerful episode of Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts, we sit down with neuroscientist and yoga teacher Sylvie Lahaie (aka Synaptic Sylvie) to unpack her journey through burnout, mental health struggles, and finding healing through yoga and mindfulness. Sylvie opens up about the toxic work culture in academia, overworking herself into collapse during her Master’s degree, and how a simple YouTube yoga video became a turning point in her life.

We explore the intersection of neuroscience and self-care, the impact of stress on the brain, the systemic pressures that push young scientists beyond their limits, and ba...

Duration: 01:09:22
E22 - (S3E2) Journey from burnout to balance & sustainable productivity: Interview with Anahita Amirpour
May 19, 2025

In this special first interview episode of Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts, Ksenia sits down with Anahita Amirpour - PhD student, performance consultant, and former nurse anaesthetist - to explore how researchers can thrive without burning out. We talk about the culture of overwork in academia, impostor syndrome, setting healthy boundaries, and how Anahita balances her PhD, her business, and writing a book. Whether you're a stressed-out scientist, a recovering perfectionist, or someone juggling too many roles, this conversation will inspire and support you.

Topics covered:

Burnout in academia and healthcareWhy impostor syndrome is so common in...

Duration: 00:47:27
E21 - (S3E1) Welcome to Season 3: Stories of struggles, strength and connection
May 13, 2025

We're back with Season 3 - and this time, our guiding word is connection. In this heartfelt episode, we explore how connection ties into the themes of our previous seasons: showing up and being bold and authentic. We share our recent (and not-so-recent) experiences with mental health struggles, particularly around postpartum, loneliness, and identity.

From stopping breastfeeding and hitting a low point, to finding unexpected support through Facebook mom groups, we talk about what it really means to feel seen, and how even small moments of shared understanding can make all the difference.

May is Mental...

Duration: 00:32:41
E20 - (S2E10) How motherhood changes us, part 3: On coming home to ourselves, redefining success and the evolution of friendships
May 06, 2025

In the final episode of our three-part series on how motherhood changes us - and the last episode of season two - we turn inward to explore the quieter, more personal transformations that happen after becoming a mother.

We talk about the shifting landscape of identity, how we’re slowly coming home to ourselves in new ways, and how motherhood reshapes how we approach things like free time, travel, presence, ambition, and rest.

We share how our dreams and definitions of success have evolved, how certain friendships have deepened or faded, and how motherhood gently (an...

Duration: 00:36:34
E19 - (S2E9) How motherhood changes us (part 2) - On heritage, the love that made us, and the Motherhood Club
Mar 03, 2025

In this deeply reflective episode, we continue our conversation about how motherhood changes us -this time diving into our connections to the past, the unspoken bond between mothers, and the way parenthood makes us confront life and mortality.

We explore how becoming mothers has reshaped our relationships with our parents and grandparents, making us more curious about our roots, family traditions, and the many love stories that brought us into existence. We talk about the quiet sisterhood of motherhood - the way we now smile at other moms in solidarity - and the realization that parenting ties...

Duration: 00:33:03
E18 - (S2E8) How motherhood changes us (part 1)
Feb 13, 2025

Motherhood changes us, there’s no doubt about it. But does it mean we lose ourselves? In this spontaneous conversation (sparked by a question from Ksenia's Instagram Live!), we dive into the shifts we’ve experienced since becoming moms and why we see them as a net positive. We talk about what’s had to adjust, what’s stayed the same, and why change doesn’t have to mean giving up parts of ourselves.

This is just the beginning of a bigger conversation. In the next episodes, we’ll explore how motherhood reshapes our dreams, passions, relationships, body image...

Duration: 00:17:03
E17 - (S2E7) Why change feels so hard (and how to keep going anyway)
Jan 31, 2025

Why does change feel so hard - even when we want it and know it would benefit us? In this episode, we dive into the brain’s resistance to change and why we often cling to what’s familiar, even if it’s not serving us. We talk about picking ourselves back up when we falter, overcoming the inner critic that tells us we’re failing, and figuring out what we really need - whether it’s more rest, more support, or just a little push through momentary discomfort.

We also explore the fine balance between setting realistic...

Duration: 00:34:38
E16 - (S2E6) Intentions, goals and New Year's resolutions
Jan 17, 2025

🎙️ In this first episode of 2025, we dive into New Year’s resolutions, intentions and the art of mindful goal-setting. We share our personal goals for the upcoming year, reflect on our approach to goal setting and how it has evolved over time, and discuss what we’ve learned about making goals truly meaningful and aligned with our values.

From the difference between resolutions and intentions to finding balance between ambition and self-compassion, this conversation is all about creating a fresh start in a way that feels authentic and achievable. Whether you’re setting big goals, small intentions, or just fig...

Duration: 00:29:55
E15 - (S2E5) Ksenia's journey through PhD, burnout and starting over
Dec 10, 2024

In this raw and honest episode of Moms, Mats & Manuscripts, Ksenia opens up about her bold decision to quit her PhD program and walk away from academia. In conversation with co-host Ivna, she shares the deep burnout, physical symptoms, and intuitive nudges that led her to realise: continuing was no longer sustainable.

This isn’t your typical “I left my PhD” story. Ksenia dives into the emotional complexity of making such a choice, the fear of disappointing others, and the surprising relief she found in finally listening to her inner voice. We talk about how academic pressure and pe...

Duration: 00:37:58
E14 - (S2E4) Ivna's thesis story part 3 - Post-defense reflections and future plans
Dec 04, 2024

We're back after a month-long hiatus with a special in-person episode, recorded during a surprise podcast retreat! 🎙️ 
Here we talked about a pivotal moment in Ivna's academic journey: her thesis defence. She shares her reflections on the experience, the emotional highs and lows of reaching this milestone, and how it feels to officially close the PhD chapter of her life.

We also explore her thoughts about what comes next—the mix of excitement and uncertainty that comes with having a world of possibilities ahead. From dealing with the fear of the unknown to embracing new beginnings, this con...

Duration: 00:17:54
E13 - (S2E3) Checking in three days before the defense (Ivna's thesis story pt2)
Oct 21, 2024

In this spontaneous episode of Moms, Mats, & Manuscripts, we check in with Ivna just 3 days before her PhD defence! 🎓😱 We dive into how she’s feeling, her writing and preparation process, and what strategies helped her stay consistent and (mostly) calm during these final moments.

We also get real about those inevitable moments of stress and panic and how she navigated them with grace—or at least tried to! Plus, we chat about our upcoming Co-working + Yoga event, a space designed to help you tackle your own projects with focus and support (and yes, we will both be there...

Duration: 00:22:46
E12 - (S2E2) Managing distractions, mom guilt and a tight deadline (Ivna's thesis story)
Oct 18, 2024

In this special episode of Moms, Mats, & Manuscripts, we sit down in person (this episode was recorded quite some time ago while we were together on our podcast retreat 😊) to chat about one of the most intense balancing acts we’ve ever seen: Ivna writing her PhD thesis while caring for an 8-month-old in a beautiful seaside location  - and on a tight deadline, no less!

Join us as Ivna shares her experience juggling baby duties, thesis writing, and self-care amid it all. We talk about how she found focus, stayed sane (mostly!), and embraced the beauty of the...

Duration: 00:32:33
E11 - (S2E1) The Power of New Beginnings
Oct 01, 2024

Welcome back! Season 2 of Moms, Mats, & Manuscripts kicks off with an empowering conversation all about fresh starts, bold moves, and authentic living. In this episode, we dive into the significance of turning the page, embracing change, and how new beginnings tie beautifully into our themes of boldness and authenticity this season. We also drop some exciting hints about what’s to come! 👀 

Whether you’re ready for a fresh chapter in life, career, or motherhood, we hope this episode will inspire you to start it with confidence.

Tune in and get ready for an incredible season a...

Duration: 00:16:37
E10 - Showing up imperfectly
Sep 19, 2024

In this special finale of Season 1, we come together in person for the first time during our mini podcast retreat! 🎉 We share our gratitude to everyone who has listened and supported us on this journey, reflect on how the retreat idea blossomed into reality, and hint at some exciting plans and goals for the future (spoiler alert: they're BIG!). Join us as we celebrate the end of this season and get a sneak peek of what's to come.

We're looking forward to having you with us for Season 2 and beyond! 🌟

Let's hang out! 🎙️ Follow Moms, Mats, and M...

Duration: 00:15:44
E9 - Living the Good Times
Aug 25, 2024

In this episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we celebrate the "good old days" and reflect on what it means to truly live in moments of happiness and wellbeing. We chat about how we recognize when we're in these great times and how they impact our behavior—like being more present and spending less time on our phones. We also explore how our yoga practice shifts depending on whether we're in a tough period or experiencing joy, and share some valuable lessons we can carry from these happy moments into more challenging days. Join us for this uplifting conversation on...

Duration: 00:25:14
E8 - Self-care and showing up during tough times
Aug 09, 2024

In this deeply personal episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we open up about dealing with the challenges we're facing in our lives right now. Amid these tumultuous times, we have a brutally honest conversation about self-care and showing up for ourselves, even when it feels impossible. We share our non-negotiables during periods of hardship, such as prioritizing physical nourishment by eating regularly, striving for quality sleep, and finding little pockets of time – as brief as 60 seconds – to move our bodies. We explore subtle ways to practice yoga off the mat, and quick tricks to feel more grounded and calm...

Duration: 00:32:49
E7 - Body Image in Pregnancy and Postpartum
Jul 26, 2024

In this heartfelt episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we chat about body image during pregnancy and postpartum. We share our personal experiences, reflecting on the awe we felt at the miracle of growing a human and the changes our bodies went through. We discuss how body image issues can impact postpartum mental health and emphasize the importance of focusing on how we feel and how well we can function in our day-to-day lives rather than how we look. We celebrate our bodies as strong and capable and talk about how our choices regarding food, exercise, and self-care now...

Duration: 00:45:49
E6 - Navigating pregnancy and maternity leave in academia
Jul 12, 2024

In this episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we tackle the topic of family planning while pursuing an academic career. Ivna, a PhD student and new mom, shares her journey of having a baby during the final year of her PhD. We explore her decision-making process, how she communicated her plans with her supervisor and colleagues, and the challenges she faced along the way.

We also discuss the concept of mindful productivity – staying focused on your work during pregnancy without overworking yourself. We emphasize the importance of setting (and sticking to!) boundaries and prioritizing self-care, including good nu...

Duration: 00:41:37
E5 - Intuition in Academia - Navigating relationships & career choices
Jun 28, 2024

In this episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we discuss the role of intuition in the highly rational, fact-oriented world of academia. We share personal stories of listening to our intuition when choosing our next career steps, navigating interviews, and building meaningful relationships. We also reflect on moments when we ignored our gut feelings and later regretted it. Through our experiences, we explore the question: Does intuition have a place in science? Our answer is a resounding yes – we need to leave some space for the magic and randomness of life!

Let's hang out! 🎙️ Follow Moms, Mats, and Man...

Duration: 00:50:51
International Day of Yoga Special - 6 Lessons from the yoga mat
Jun 22, 2024

This is a replay of an Instagram Live we hosted to celebrate the International Day of Yoga on June 21. In this special episode, we talked about ways yoga practice can be a great support for people navigating the challenges of their academic journey and some pieces of advice on how to approach your time on the mat so that it can be serene and helpful for both your physical and mental health. We also shared two short practical exercises - a mindfulness meditation and a breathwork practice - that you could integrate into your daily routine and use whenever...

Duration: 00:25:04
E4 - Intuition & Trusting your body in motherhood
Jun 14, 2024

In this episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we explore the role of intuition in motherhood. We share personal stories from our pregnancies and birth experiences, as well as our early postpartum journeys. We discuss how intuition felt powerfully awakened through the transformative process of pregnancy and becoming a mother. Join us as we reflect on the instinctual insights that guided us through these life-changing moments, offering support and encouragement to fellow moms.

( This episode was originally planned as an Instagram Live when we called our conversations "Yogi Chat." Due to a series of IG glitches and...

Duration: 00:48:38
E3 - Maternal Mental Health
May 31, 2024

In this episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we spoke about the crucial topic of maternal mental health. We provided a brief overview of common postpartum mood disorders, shared our personal experiences with baby blues and postpartum anxiety, 
and discussed factors that can exacerbate postpartum mental health issues. We talked about the importance of seeking help, exploring various forms of support from medical treatment to hiring a postpartum doula, and the power of asking for (and accepting!) help from family and friends. This was an open and vulnerable conversation, and we hope that, if you're a new mom, i...

Duration: 00:49:21
E1 - How it started
May 24, 2024

Welcome to the first episode of the Moms, Mats and Manuscripts podcast! Get to know the hosts as we introduce ourselves and talk about our formal academic paths, some challenges we encountered along the way, how yoga helped us overcome (or at least become more aware of) them, and where we are now on our journeys. In this episode, we also share a serendipitous story of how this podcast was born out of a series of Instagram Lives filled with technical glitches and jokes about how "we should have a podcast one day". So grab yourself a cup of...

Duration: 00:26:50
E2 - Mental health crisis in academia
May 24, 2024

In our second episode of "Moms, Mats, and Manuscripts," we honour Mental Health Awareness Month with an open discussion on the challenges and pressures of academia. We opened up about the mental health struggles we faced as PhD students, stemming both from self-imposed pressures and outside expectations. We also shared how we recognize the early warning signs of declining mental health and the ways yoga has helped us navigate tough times and become more resilient. Join us for a vulnerable conversation aimed at highlighting the importance of mental well-being in academic life.

If you're struggling...

Duration: 00:41:38