My Madness METHod with Jason Fareas
By: Jason Fareas
Language: en
Categories: Society, Culture, Personal, Journals, Health, Fitness, Mental
The weekly autobiography of a young man from Northern California’s Central Valley, and a look back on his participation and influence over the 1990s methamphetamine epidemic. He sorts through decades of descent into addiction and mental illness and how self-realization, acceptance, and unconditional love eventually saw him to recovery. Follow us on Instagram at @mymadnessmethod Contact Jason via email at Mymadnessmethod819@gmail.com
Episodes
Episode 14: Aura Farming
Jan 09, 2026Jason is reflecting on how the subconscious links we inadvertently make can lead us to places we never expected.
Duration: 00:35:28Episode 13: Back on My Bullshit
Nov 14, 2025Jason, despite all his best intentions and efforts, finds himself back in a rotation - a rotation he never thought he would have to once again break away. All-the-while, learning some valuable life lessons.
Duration: 00:37:57Episode 12: My Reflection
Sep 13, 2025Jason dives into who he was and who he became as a father of (now) two boys while struggling with true-to-life hurdles faced as a parent in current-state society.
Duration: 00:34:29Episode 11: Push Gift
Aug 30, 2025As life piles on seemingly unnoticed, Jason faces life head-on and is presented with a loving gesture.
Duration: 00:35:25Episode 10: Dynamic Lifestyle
Jul 26, 2025Jason slips back a bit in the timeline to open up about occurrences leading up to another life changing event.
Duration: 00:31:54Episode 9: For>To (itious)
Jul 05, 2025Life lessons continually overlooked and ignored place Jason in a headspace that could prove detrimental to everything he’s trying to accomplish
Duration: 00:28:32Episode 8: Liquidation
Jun 14, 2025Jason starts making exciting strides in life until life teaches him a lesson about trust leading him to find a new “Go To” in order to try and drown his sorrows.
Duration: 00:36:17Episode 7: The Value in Trauma
May 31, 2025Current events inspire, and almost insist, that Jason step away from the timeline to address things that need to be said and addressed because it will take more than him alone to create change.
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Duration: 00:35:15Episode 6: Crossed Paths
May 17, 2025A chance encounter of the worst type initiates the movement of life forward for Jason and his little family. Sometimes things happen for a reason and you dont always have to like the way its presented.
Duration: 00:34:19Episode 5: The Coming
May 03, 2025There is no amount of conditioning that could have prepared Jason for what happens next. Life, in all its splendor, moves along at a brisk pace - so ready or not, here he comes.
Duration: 00:27:49Episode 4: Decisions, Decisions?
Apr 12, 2025Jason finds himself in a great place in life, while also executing a decade-old plan he forgot even still existed.
Duration: 00:33:35Episode 3: Acclimation
Mar 29, 2025Jason is starting to feel like a human again. Sober responsibilities, sober emotions and a sober lifestyle feel both amazing and foreign to him.
Duration: 00:33:31Episode 2: I'm a Toys-R-Us kid
Mar 15, 2025Adulting? No thank you. Jason splits the difference between being an adult and holding on to his inner child while detoxing and planning for the future and what may come.
Duration: 00:39:45Episode 1: The Cartwheel
Mar 01, 2025How many different ways can life flip you on your head? Jason's return home causes him to face an unexpected and undesirable juxtaposition.
Duration: 00:24:17Get Ready for "Cup Runneth Over"
Feb 26, 2025Jason is back for the second chapter in his story. Get ready to hear about his road from recovery and the obstacles he faced along the way.
Duration: 00:03:32Episode 53: Withdrawal
Dec 22, 2024Is it the beginning of the end, or the end of the beginning? The long ride home proves to be a bit of both.
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Duration: 00:30:56Episode 52: Juan for the Road
Dec 06, 2024Jason and Cindy feel like desert tumbleweeds with no end to their tumble in sight. Everything feels negatively normal as usual - that is, until blessings are bestowed from what looks and feels to be from out of thin air.
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Duration: 00:31:01Episode 51: Trust Your Gut
Nov 19, 2024“Reality” make a surprise guest appearance in this episode, and good thing it does, because Jason needs a guest star of this magnitude right about now.
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Duration: 00:31:07Episode 50: A Lesson worth its Wait in Gold
Oct 25, 2024In celebration of the 50th episode, Jason steps away from the timeline for a chance to share part of his journey as it is today and how the experiences and duration of this journey played a necessary roll in who he is today.
Duration: 00:34:52Episode 49: Collective
Sep 27, 2024As business between Ava and Jason begins to ramp up. Jason notices things about her circle of friends that have him questioning if he’s with the right group of people.
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Duration: 00:42:17Episode 48: Herding Cats
Sep 06, 2024As Jason and Cindy’s reality of feeling done with their Vegas lifestyle begins to take shape, there are new hurdles presenting themselves. Loose ends tidy up and some intense situations stand in the way of progress.
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Duration: 00:42:22Episode 47: The Wall
Aug 23, 2024Who would have ever thought having nowhere to be would lead Jason and Cindy to yet another “adventure”? Even sitting still proves to be problematic for the duo.
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Duration: 00:33:49Episode 46: Her
Aug 09, 2024It was always HER
Duration: 00:26:27Episode 45: Pivotal
Jul 26, 2024Jason accepts the severity and reality of who he has become (and who he presumes he intends to be) with the most desperate personal decisions. Fortunately for him, Cindy clings to the memory of Jason’s worth before the dope and won’t stand for his current mindset.
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Duration: 00:40:08Episode 44: Past Comes to Call
Jul 12, 2024Jason never thought old agreements would actually come to fruition. When things begin to start looking up for he and Cindy, Jason’s past has provided a little side quest that he is not allowed to decline and this may just be the beginning of the end for him.
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Duration: 00:38:53Episode 43: Headspace
Jun 21, 2024Seemingly out of options, and hungry to change the situation for he and Cindy, Jason quietly (and secretly) returns to Harbor Island in a move of selfless preservation. Unfortunately, the people he hopes will serve his interests have him second-guessing everyone’s motives.
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Duration: 00:32:35Episode 42: Better Duck
Jun 07, 2024In several moments of processing and healing regarding what is possibly the scariest and most dangerous situation he has experienced to this point of the story, Jason speaks (from an in-the-moment POV) on something that has become most important. The gravity of his Las Vegas reality is proving to be very real with true to date implications on who he is today.
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Duration: 00:36:29Episode 41: Control - or the lack thereof
May 24, 2024If life imitates art - then we are mid-stroke Picasso. Current-day life provides reflective surfaces looking back to homelessness and living on the edge of hopelessness. As reality begins to set in and slip away, Jason finds juxtaposition in his adult life to that of his old life in Vegas.
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Duration: 00:32:56Episode 40: Falling in Place
May 10, 2024Jason thinks his status will keep him on top even when he steps away for a break. The unfortunate reality of the dope game is there is always someone willing to fill in when the opportunity presents itself. He learns that status means nothing to addicts and what it costs is far more than he ever could have expected
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Duration: 00:24:56Episode 39: Untouchable or Insulated?
Apr 26, 2024After the brush-up with local law enforcement, Jason begins to feel like he has Vegas wrapped around his finger. This leads to him taking things up a whole other level without any consideration to the consequences.
Duration: 00:41:28Episode 38: Six Degrees
Apr 12, 2024While the reality of law enforcement closing in appears front and center, Jason finds a connection to what should be viewed as an adversary. Who you may wonder? Give a listen! It’s no one you would ever expect
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Duration: 00:33:35Episode 37: Too Dumb to Run
Apr 06, 2024Not all advice is good advice. Not all role models are meant to be such. This goes double for a person in the perils of addiction who exhibits personality disorders and the emotional intelligence of a crocodile. Jason, once again sticking to the rules, re-establishes his station in a new part of town.
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Duration: 00:33:08Episode 36: Up Close and Personal
Mar 29, 2024Never knowing what’s around the next corner, or who will or won’t be there when that corner is turned, Hiro instills some dark advice on Jason. Looking back, this advice was more of a life lesson than face value suggests.
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Duration: 00:37:07Episode 35: My Hiro
Mar 15, 2024Understanding one’s station in life is an important perspective to have, and in this episode, Jason is shown such perspective. But does he recognize the gravity of his experience?
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Duration: 00:31:05Episode 34: LowLife
Mar 08, 2024Life was not completely full of trouble and regret. In this episode, Jason reminisces about some of the “good times”. And how reflection on being presented with life-changing opportunities, to no avail, provided insight and clarity as to who and what he is.
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Duration: 00:24:36Episode 33: Act "as if"
Feb 23, 2024The adherents of great advice applied to not so great circumstances escalates Jason’s status in the Vegas dope game - and he never even noticed.
Having never taken a moment to consider his current station and always approaching life for the good time aligns him with like figures.
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Duration: 00:28:57Episode 32: The Lost Boyz
Feb 09, 2024Reality hits Jason as he digs into the whereabouts of folks from his past. Business in Vegas is doing quite well, and he discovers a loophole in the new rules provided by Dolli that lead to a whole new revenue stream.
Duration: 00:26:11Episode 31: Islanders
Feb 02, 2024Business is good on the south side of Las Vegas. Jason has set a tone but is required to learn the rules of the new table. Some folks emerge who not only help escalate his game but also provide permissions that come with new regulations.
Duration: 00:28:39Episode 30: Assimilation
Jan 19, 2024After setting up shop (once again) with new friends, Jason and Cindy return to Harbor Island and immerse themselves within a whole new world that is Sin City.
Duration: 00:32:15Episode 29: Eye of the Storm
Jan 12, 2024Here they go again. Jason and Cindy find themselves back to old ways in what was supposed to be a new start in Las Vegas. In the wake of new friendships, the “Jefe” version of Jay finds he is well-suited for this environment.
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Duration: 00:29:24Episode 28: Solving for wh”Y”
Jan 05, 2024An introspect into the importance of asking why by way of exploring why Jason even began this podcast and how the simple question, in his opinion, is THE answer.
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Duration: 00:25:27Episode 27: Room to Breathe
Dec 22, 2023Chaos continues to escalate in Northern California and appears nothing is going to let up. Jason and Cindy feel like a change is needed, and a fresh start.
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Duration: 00:40:22Episode 26: After
Dec 15, 2023The amount of anger and betrayal running through Jason’s veins causes an alter ego to emerge; replacing love and laughter with acts of vengeance.
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Duration: 00:30:11Episode 25: Off a Cliff
Dec 01, 2023While Jason is taking a shot at sobriety up at his Uncle’s home, a vindictive “ex” unloads a secret that leaves him feeling alone, broken, and angry - the type of anger that clouds decisions and restraint.
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Duration: 00:31:11Episode 24: Civic Duty
Nov 24, 2023Jason looks back fondly on a character throughout his story that has never truly been discussed; his girlfriend’s 1995 Honda Civic that he tricked out during his peak in the dope game.
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Duration: 00:36:07Episode 23: It’s Cold Out There
Nov 10, 2023Jason is forced to vacate the apartment. He and Cindy are now homeless around the Central Valley. New characters enter the picture, misrepresenting allegiances and shining a light on the speed of their demise.
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Duration: 00:32:15Episode 22: Mousecatchers
Nov 03, 2023Jason’s addiction hits a new low and is introduced to a whole new group of addicts from a part of the dope game never previously experienced - doing whatever they can to survive and stay high.
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Duration: 00:34:41Episode 21: Fraudulent Behaviors
Oct 20, 2023Old friends return to Jason’s life as he scrapes by with the hustles he has adopted in order to feed his addiction while trying to help others make money as well.
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Duration: 00:36:37Episode 20: The Fall Beyond
Oct 13, 2023Jason is forced to move with Cindy and Eric back to Manteca, where the madness all began. He finds himself up to old tactics to get by while being riddled with betrayal that even a message from beyond couldn’t stop.
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Duration: 00:34:09Episode 19: Ranch Hands
Oct 06, 2023As the “Ranch” heats up, Jason moves out of the area and lets the people working for him handle the day-to-day operations.
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Duration: 00:27:28Episode 18: Follow the Leader
Sep 29, 2023Jason expands his team, and learns to maintain his situation with Weston Ranch, Bear and the Family, and not to mention the competition.
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Duration: 00:27:32Episode 17: The Business Model
Sep 22, 2023Jason begins building his own family from his own vision within the Weston Ranch neighborhood of Stockton to generate revenue and build respect from Bear and the elders.
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Duration: 00:24:19Episode 16: The Grown-Ups Table
Sep 15, 2023As Jason’s meetings at the compound continue, the leaders remind him why he was brought to this level in the first place, and now it’s his responsibility to produce.
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Duration: 00:22:20Episode 15: Compound Interests
Sep 01, 2023After Jaime’s arrest, Jason convinces Bear a discussion must be had to figure out why and how law enforcement is coming after them all at once.
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Duration: 00:24:51Episode 14: Ride or Die
Aug 25, 2023Jason is exposed to the other dealings going on with Bear and his family. After running things non-stop, he and his friends decide they need to take a vacation and head out of town to take a break and reset.
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Duration: 00:33:28Episode 13: A Rose by Any Other Name
Aug 18, 2023Jason reflects on his foundation and how his grandmother, Rose, was a constant driving force when he would struggle to to stay in the light and how she remains his conscious to this day.
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Duration: 00:21:22Episode 12: Just
Aug 11, 2023Jason takes this time to step back and focus on the purpose for telling his story, how his actions impacted those he loves, and the struggles he still deals with today.
Duration: 00:21:47Episode 11: Black Widow
Aug 04, 2023Jason has a gut feeling things are not right with the hustle Chris has going on. Things begin to look like they’re turning violent, and Jason chooses to arm himself in order to protect his friends.
Duration: 00:23:30Episode 10: Promotion
Jul 21, 2023Now back in NorCal and in full swing Jay walks us through his path from consumer to dealer to manufacturer of methamphetamine.
Duration: 00:29:51Episode 9: Homecoming
Jul 14, 2023Jason and his girlfriend return home from Phoenix to help with damage control since the arrest of their friend, Chris. Upon their return, they discover how much things have changed and how much more dangerous the dope game has become for their friends.
Duration: 00:29:45Episode 8: “I Don’t Think You’re Down”
Jun 30, 2023Despite the severe consequences Jason and his friends experienced during their venture into the dope game, things were not always bad. In this episode, Jason reflects on some of the fun and crazy times he and his friends had growing up in NorCal, but also how that demeanor led them into the path of the dope game.
Duration: 00:23:48Episode 7: crAZy
Jun 23, 2023Jason and his girlfriend escape to Arizona to start a new life, but the demons he was trying to escape reappear in new friends and new circumstances.
Duration: 00:29:51Episode 6: Writing on the Wall
Jun 09, 2023Jason comes to grips with the manipulation he’s caused, the tensions between the team, and the need to escape. Only when he tries, the demons he tried to run from come back with a vengeance.
Duration: 00:35:34Episode 5: Behind the 8-Ball
May 19, 2023Tension begins to rise in the dope game, and Jason describes the emotional suit of armor he built for himself that ultimately affected his mental health.
Duration: 00:24:32Episode 4: There are Rules
Apr 28, 2023There are rules – rules in life, rules in nature, and rules in an industry that lives outside the rules. In this episode, Jason recollects on the rules he lived by in the dope game, which ones his team kept in line, and which ones were broken. He looks back on how these rules also impacted his moral compass at that present moment, and also the events where broken rules began to change who he was and his outlook on life.
Duration: 00:26:12Episode 3: Throw-Away
Apr 21, 2023Jason takes a break from the story to explain how past relationships with friends, family, and dating impacted his choices venturing into the dope game. And what lessons he took from them looking back.
Duration: 00:20:53Episode 2: Rosebud
Apr 14, 2023Business gets bigger, stakes get higher, and friendships fade away. Jason dives into more details about how the lifestyle quickly consumed his group’s lives and the consequences faced along the way.
Duration: 00:21:37Episode 1: Happy Daze
Apr 06, 2023Jason looks back on his life throughout the Central Valley of California, how crystal meth became the drug of choice amongst himself and his friends, and how it was only the beginning toward a downward spiral of madness and mayhem.
Duration: 00:25:30Welcome to the Madness
Apr 06, 2023Join Jason Fareas on a ride through his first-person plunge into the dark realities of drug abuse and unchecked mental illness as he finds his calling and path to finding redemption.
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